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Trees

Firs are probably my favourite type of tree. They were always the Christmas tree of choice when we went to the woods during my childhood, their soft flat needles and lovely smell the very essence of the holiday.

A few firs close to our house have grown to the point where they should probably be removed before they get much bigger. Firs seem to have a shortish life span, die quickly, rot inside and tumble down. I need to be more ruthless in keeping them cleared, but it’s difficult when they look so lovely when fresh winter snow decorates them outside our door!

I’m trying, as much as possible, to let nature do what it wants on the land I live on, so cutting down any tree is a bit uncomfortable but sometimes necessary and now always well thought out. It’s a funny balancing act, this rewilding instinct I have developed. When I started this journey I thought I was rewilding the land, but, of course, I’m really rewilding myself, uniting with nature rather than trying to change it to always suit my needs or ideals. Nature always wins, but humans consistently believe we can control nature, and we never can. We are a funny animal.

If you are on PEI and want to pick up a free tree for your holidays, I have a few between 6 and 10 feet tall and would be happy to have them be adored and adorned by you. They are a natural, unshaped tree – more Victoria and Albert odd than Disney World perfect – but will smell lovely and are chemical free. I possess many manual and motorized felling tools to assist the culling. Wear a toque, plaid shirt and wool mittens and have a real PEI heritage moment! They had a good life, I will miss their presence, but will not miss them toppling onto my house during a storm when I’m an old lady.

Victoria and Albert with one of my trees…of course not, they live too far from PEI!

There’s Still My Joy

I first heard the song There’s Still My Joy in 2008. My father died that October, so Christmas was destined to be quiet and strange. He had had dementia. We lost him slowly and painfully over six years, hundreds of small goodbyes and flickers of hope, a human game of snakes and ladders, but rigged with many many more snakes.

I was listening to a Christmas music station on our television the week before Christmas that year and in the midst of all the fa-la-la-la-las and jingle bells came Roberta Flack’s clear and tender version of this song. It made me stop and sit and listen. The only other time I remember having that happen was while I was shopping in an enormous bookstore in Toronto and hearing Norah Jones singing Don’t Know Why. Same kind of calm, quiet, sweet song cutting through jangle.

There’s Still My Joy isn’t well known, but should be. It just popped up on my iPod and I searched for Flack’s version to share. Seems the Indigio Girls do a lovely version too, but here is the queen of my teenage angst, Melissa Manchester, with a beautiful version of the song she cowrote with Beth Neilsen Chapman and Matt Rollings. They sang my spirit back to life.

I brought my tree down to the shore
The garland and the silver star
To find my peace and grieve no more
To heal this place inside my heart

On every branch I laid some bread
And hungry birds filled up the sky
They rang like bells around my head
They sang my spirit back to life

One tiny child can change the world
One shining light can show the way
Through all my tears, for what I’ve lost
There’s still my joy
There’s still my joy for Christmas day

The snow comes down on empty sand
There’s tinsel moonlight on the waves
My soul was lost but here I am
So this must be amazing grace

One tiny child can change the world
One shining light can show the way
Beyond these tears for what I’ve lost
There’s still my joy
There’s still my joy for Christmas day
There’s still my joy for Christmas day